Not because it’s a Monday or that it’s 11.11.2024, but because I failed again!

Although this is something I’m not very proud of, I will admit it; because I promised myself to be candid, transparent, and authentic.

This might be the 20th time – could also be the 50th – that I break a good streak I start, whether that was a spiritual practice, a diet, gym attendance, or book reading… you name it!

I do have issues with discipline, but there’s something deeper that I take full responsibility for. I think I repeated the phrase: “This always happens to me” too many times that it became a belief! And we all know what happens when your mind believes something.

Let me give you an example. Last month, I decided I’ll follow a meditation that helps me stay present and take control of my thoughts and emotions; hence, my reactions. I started with such enthusiasm and excitement, and I loved it in the first week.

Then my mind started: “Okay, it has been a week now, and I do not feel fully present or in control! Is this actually going to work?” …. I said: “Keep going, it’s the journey and not the result, after all.”

I go on, but the enthusiasm is now half of what it was. I try to change the location or the time at which I do the meditation, hoping that I don’t get bored. But that wasn’t the solution. Reflecting on things now, I can say that the longest streak I was able to maintain was two – maybe two and a half – months.

Something then happens to knock me off!

What breaks the streak, you may ask? It’s usually an upsetting event that knocks my balanced state of mind, and I get lost in overthinking about it that I skip my practice for a day or two.

Then the cycle of regret and shame begins, and my heart tells me: “It’s when things get rough that perseverance counts!”

I know that, heart; I know that!

A few days later, I get back to my senses. I know I can’t lose it all! So I get up and begin again!

Today is one of the days that I start again! And, no, it does not always happen to me! I am now happening to it! And it doesn’t have to be perfect every day!

There was something I saw on Instagram last week that gave me a whole new perspective on building a streak and showing up for myself every day.

Showing up without enthusiasm is also showing up.

So if you ever fail again, tell yourself this: “I promise you, my heart, no matter how many times you trip and how many times you start over, I will love you through it all unconditionally! I’m here for you. You’re enough just the way you are!“

You’re on the right track! ❤️